Quietstorm Session

The Awkward Writer

Pieces of Me: Surgery and I (Part 1)

I’m the type of person who only goes to the doctor when it is necessary. I usually go twice a year, once to see my primary care doctor and once to see my gynecologist. I wouldn’t say that I’m afraid of doctors because that is not the case. I just get anxiety thinking about the negative outcome of a doctors visit. And this was the case recently.

At the beginning of the year, I decided to find a new gynecologist because within the last year I moved from Virginia to North Carolina. My sister recommended a clinic for women. So, I called and made an appointment.

My appointment was set for February. Even though my anxiety kicked in during the wait for my appointment, I didn’t think anything was noticeably wrong. I was up for a big surprise. My appointment was for my yearly pap smear, breast examination, and std testing. I always take the day off for these appointments because these appointments are always so uncomfortable for me.

The day comes and I’m up bright and early (it is an early morning appointment). I could barely sleep the night before due to my anxieties. I always have issues with my anxiety when going to a new and unfamiliar place. As this was my first time at the Woman’s Clinic.

I arrived early to fill out paperwork. I played a game of Solitaire Live as I wait. The wait was minimal. The doctor came into the room and greeted me. I was a bit happy to know that she was indeed a woman. I prefer women doctors and I forgot to state that when I made my appointment. After telling her a bit about myself, she started the examination. During the examination, she probed my abdomen and being to question me about the hardness of my stomach with a puzzled look on her face.  I begin to tense up and feel like something wasn’t right. She then states that she believes there is something abnormal going on with my ovary. She wanted me to come back within a week for a ct scan and ultrasound.

During my ultrasound, it was determined that I had a not so small cyst on my ovary. I had a dermoid cyst on my left ovary.

The cyst was so big that the only way to get it out would be to take my ovary out as well. Yes, I would have to have surgery. If I cared about my health, there was no avoiding this. The doctor office called me to set up an appointment to discuss my next steps with the doctor. The doctor discussed with me that in order to remove the cyst she would have to perform a procedure called laparotomy. During a laparotomy, a single, larger cut is made in your tummy to give the surgeon better access to the cyst.

The doctor wanted to schedule the surgery within the next month. After a few more doctors visits, a surgery date was set for May 26. Oh and I forgot to tell you that following my surgery, I had to stay out of work for 6 weeks. My anxiety was really kicking in.


I think I will end Part 1 of the story right here. I look forward to sharing Part 2 with you soon.



12 comments found

  1. Oh no!! I’m so sorry you had to go through that!! I hope everything went smoothly during the surgery. I’ll be looking for part 2 to see what happened!

  2. Oh wow, that must have been so scary! You never really expect something to be seriously wrong, so I can imagine it was a shock! Just goes to show how important regular checkups are though! Good on you for going despite the anxiety!

  3. So sorry you went through this, but I am so glad it was found and you could take care of this. Look forward to hearing more of what happened.

  4. This shows how important it is to try and over come anxietys like this. Routine check ups are so important and you are very brave!

  5. Man, I would be so terrified going through this. I have been in the hospital before to have my kids but I have always been terrified of surgery! I am so glad you were brave enough to make the appointments !

  6. Oh no! I hope the surgery went well and you’re all good. I had to have a tooth out and scared the doctors with my anxiety and needle phobia. I couldn’t imagine something as serious as this.

  7. Oh my goodness you are so brave! This is literally my worst nightmare! It certainly makes me think twice about not going to the Drs! Brave post to right! Well done!

  8. I’m sorry to hear you have been through such an ordeal. I hope everything worked out alright for you and I’m now left in suspense waiting for part 2! Thanks for being brave enough to share your story 🙂

  9. Oh wow, I’m sorry you had to go through all of this. But it’s good that they were able to catch it and fix the issue. Going to the doctor gives me a huge amount of anxiety, and I would definitely say that I have a fear of doctors, but having regular checkups are so important that I suck it up and go.

  10. Wow, thank you for being transparent! I get anxiety all the time too. And Solitaire is a game that help relaxes my nerves! I pray and hope all went well the surgery xxx

Leave comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked with *.